Friday, September 22, 2006

Crux.y Speaks About - never speaking again

just this once, everyone i know says that A is the best route to take. and logically speaking A is indeed the best route to take. but sometimes, especially this once, i just know that B is the route that i should take. even though its fraught with all the horrible inexplicable stuff, but much to the dismay of everyone else, i guess im choosing B. i don't care what they say about me, because i may very well be throwing myself into a bed of needles, but perhaps i embrace the excitement that comes with it. probably im already immune, who knows.

and so im never gonna talk about it ever again to anyone who doesn't know how it truly feels. because all i'll ever get are the usual its-all-for-your-own-good words of advice and hordes of politically (or more so logically) appropriate answers. its because i've already chosen what i've decided and what im seeking is support and not critique, judgement or pros-cons analysis. let me do what i wanna do.

the more doubts i get about my decisions, the more i want to prove them wrong. but perhaps if i fail, den i guess i deserve to face the music, a consequence of my hot-headedness. now that's angst. and seriously this once, i dun really care what others say.
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moved along at 12:49 AM
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