Thursday, January 10, 2008

splitter - does it still matter?

its been widely believed that there's no point in comparing oneself with others. every individual is unique in his/her own way and people like that uniqueness for various reasons.

but its difficult to subscribe to that belief and more so (difficult) to practise it.

the recent spate of inactivity made life all the more monotonous and its not like im not trying to do anything about it. it's perpectually impossible to balance mixed feelings; between having to respect the verdict passed and inner turmoil which happens to be everpresent (in this case). and im caught in between. i cant even express how i feel.

i have this huge temptation to compare against the other supposedly less significant individuals, and well truth is i did. and the result was rather negative. against my favour. and it sucks quite badly. maybe im thinking a little too much outside the box, resulting in this weird and uncomfortable state. maybe i ought to relax. maybe i ought to just lie low and wait for the opportunity to come.

im as impatient as anyone can get, especially if you know how much i hate to wait. this is like a tough test for me, and its wearing me down quite a fair bit.

give me a hand.
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moved along at 9:21 PM
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