Thursday, February 19, 2009

splitter - fooled by stress and excitement

the lines between stress and excitement are rather blurry.

i am feeling so much stress at the moment.
i have eons of stuff to do tmr.
i have 4 new quotations which i havent even gone thru yet.
i have 5 emails to send.
i have 1 analisa to deal with.
i have 3 payment vouchers to print.
i have calls to make to the teacher in charge, the guides. none have confirmed with me as of now.
i have adrian, fiona and lilian breathing down my neck all at the same time.
i have a weekend family getaway to arrange and i havent even ask my boss.
i have that big scheme that i need to hide from the world.
i have one more interview to do tmr.
i have my smu scholarship issue to settle.
i have my tuition notes to settle.
i have so much to worry about my teckwhye.
i have about 3cm in thickness of files to check if the gebiz has been awarded.
i have more emails to send to arrange for appointments.
i have natas travel fair to worry about.
i am feeling so much excitement at the same time.

i feel so competent. thank you.

i have discovered, to my dismay, that i can survive in this hellhole.

people tell me that i must be a fool for working so hard and earning so little. i think i am a fool, but i like to feel competent and indispensable.

and for that it's just sufficient to put a faint smile on my face.
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moved along at 11:02 PM
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