Sunday, March 22, 2009

splitter - less like a fool

it seemed a really long time ago that i kinda felt really unsatisfactory about myself. i used to be upset over the slightest things and always felt the urgent need to fit in everywhere. how i needed to be part of things and in the loop whenever something happened.

then came these strange few years that sparked a change in me.

somehow i no longer feel the need to depend on social attention and be in the thick of things. somehow i learnt to be slightly tolerant and happy with my lot. somehow i managed to channel some form of inner calmness whenever i am in a stressful situation.

i can't exactly say that i'm reformed, cause i haven't sinned in the first place. Also, i only consider myself slightly better than before.

but at least for now, i am happy with who i am and the things i am doing. (almost all of them) and i guess there's nothing more that i can ask for at this moment in time.

maybe the bad memories do linger from time to time, but they always find their way to the back of my head eventually, and slowly the wounds heal.

and it is then when i am less like a fool.
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moved along at 9:01 AM
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